my dearest darlin,
don't know why (or maybe i do) gin your emails seemto throw me into an emotional rollercoaster every time.whoever said the electronic age was makingcommunication impersonal was seriously deluded. I amjust getting back from thirsty mind ... which remindedme of you ... which reminded me of your last email.God! mitisha, more than ever i feel this 'plan' or'path' God has set out for me. and i think i'm at avery important point in my life to start believing inmyself, my dreams and what i can accomplish. becauseat the end of the day you are so, AMAZINGLY right insaying that if we really want something bad enough,opportunities are right around the corner to besnatched. i felt so ashamed of my self-defeatingbehavior of the past few weeks, thinking i couldn'tdo anything before i even gave it a shot. i told you idid Take the Lead last week and the lady was sayinghow a lot of women get down with the 'impostersyndrome' when they get to high places. i think in away mitiye i've always felt like i've cheated fate bybeing here ... meaning the place where so many moretalented and hardworking people strive butunfortunately never get the chance to reach. this isnot so hard to imagine seeing how i went to nazarethschool and i wouldn't say i was the last person whoshould've gotten the chance to come here but i mostdefinitely wouldn't say i was the most deserving oneeither. but guess what? i'm here and there must be areason for it right? RIGHT! and i intend to prove it... for myself more than anyone else. i feel so muchcalmer and focused now its soooooooooooooooliberating. i know its not gonna be 'alga balga' likeBele would say but i'm up for it and let's see howthat's gonna turn out. darling ... the story about Aster ... woy tata!meches inja mitiye at this point ke lip service wuchimin yideregal? andande eko alayehum alsemahum yishalalyemir! i mean meches ke ager bet tesedew minoruethiopianoch deltoachew indamaynoru yetaweke indehonesale ... we tend to simply ignore it and go with ourweekdays Bole slash weekends at Langano existences.min taregiwalesh ... doesn't it make you marvel ginmitisha? yesew lij ability to just simply shut out theunpleasant things in life, even when they're happeningright under our noses? it never ceases to amaze me.Henock once told me that the greatest gift God hasever given us was the wonderful ability to forget ...woy gud ... he's right gin you know? let's just hopeand PRAY we don't end up like the hypocrites we sodespise. mitiye expect my call either tomorrow or mondayevening ... i've found a new card which apparently hasmore minutes so yane degmo inselekitewalen. missingyou ke libe ... adnakish ke how sadly. muaaaaaaaaaaaaah
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